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Noah Thomas, the creator of this channel, was diagnosed with hypogonadism by a doctor and prescribed the medically indicated treatment of testosterone replacement therapy.

My story

My name is Noah and on May 18, 2011, I had a rare reaction to a medication called VIVITROL and, as a result, it became a suicidal depression with depersonalization and anxiety. I lost 25 pounds in 4 weeks and was in panic or almost panic for 8 weeks in a row, mixed with the most painful and dark depression I have ever imagined. Immediately I could not work and I had to move with my parents who, along with many brothers and friends, had to see me 24 hours a day, 7 days a week, since it was a danger for me. I was finally hospitalized in the Psych Ward for a week. Overcoming each day seemed truly unbearable and I knew that I would surely die. I was prescribed many different medical treatments, prescribed by SSRIs, tricyclics, mood stabilizers, antipsychotics, holistic medicines, acupuncture and even a form of shock therapy called RTMS. I just saw no improvement in my condition for a whole year. It was decided that I had treatment-resistant depression and I spent almost every moment crying. Weeks after starting my last round of medications (Seroquel and Nortryptaline) as a last effort, I extracted blood to detect possible hormonal imbalances and my testosterone levels returned to 200 ng / Dl and 150 ng / Dl. The average man of 25 years has 750 ng / Dl. With this discovery, I had an explanation of why I was not improving and why I could be so sick. The symptoms of low T are very similar to those of major depression. I started with the legally prescribed testosterone replacement therapy soon after and I have been reporting to the world and documenting my experience with the treatment, as well as offering my vision and perspective on various mental health issues. I am lucky to say that little by little, in the last 6 years, I have been improving and becoming more stable, which I never thought possible. My low T manifested itself in the form of major depression, anxiety and depersonalization / derealization for more than a year. Treating my low testosterone has been a HUGE part of the puzzle, but I had to continue working hard to maintain my mental stability with many setbacks. Recovering some mental stability is nothing but a miracle, since I was close to death for what I felt like forever. I still do not consider myself totally healed, but now I am closer than ever and I intend to use what I have gone through to help or at least offer support to others in need. I was able to successfully leave my Seroquel and Pamelor.

I work all the time as part of my mental health recovery! Weight training and all kinds of cardio govern a lot of my free time and I also share it on my channel.

Video credits to bignoknow YouTube channel

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    1. Thanks Noah. Sometimes I will get hit with these symptoms and it's right after a period of feeling great leaving my confused as to why it's happening… Like you I just have to work on not running from them and working through them. It's tough but just have to let it pass.

    2. just like OCD, exposure without response. The same with thoughts/feelings in depression. Once your not hostage of your mind, you're create and sculpt your near future step by step

    3. I dislike this feeling I don’t know how to deal with it, loving someone with depression is the hardest thing I’ve ever done and it has broken me made me feel like I’m not worth his time that he doesn’t want me here that he would rather be anywhere but with me. I’m not aloud to ask question or I’m to emotional which might be a bit true I need help in how I can deal with things better. I just don’t know anymore..

    4. Noah, I beat 15 years of diabetes! Got results yesterday. Hba1c was 104mmol/mol before keto. Three months later . . . 45mmol/mol. Never been below 100 in a decade. Target is 42!

    5. my depression is bad i dnt even sleep and its going to a year nw bt i like your videos it makes me stronger all the way from South Africa

    6. Started the day strong with your testimony. I Wasn't strong enough to last the day without depression weighting me down and porn providing me comfort. Hoping I can one day beat this beast. Keep strong Noah.

    7. I've been going through hell for many years.. no doctor has helped me nothing.. I thjnk this is what some call "complex ptsd" I feel this constant agony and fear and needing to be with someone, but I keep getting hurt by women and then I get angry and it just spirals , plus my family is traumatizing and I'm failing school for the 2nd time in college it's endless until I will end it all

    8. Im dealing with this right now. 23 days sober and I just got through a fight with my bf (huge trigger) without drinking. Then I slept, and I didn't feel like crap the next day. I always try to run from strong feelings and make them go away, but I'm slowly learning to sit with emotions. Its hard, but god it feels so much better than short-changing myself with escapism.

    9. Thank you Noah , you are a very smart person and keep helping people with ur advices ❤️👍🏽👌🏻

    10. Let it be in that depressive episode. But consciously. Then You could ask a question: what do I really want? Someone said: depression is like a date with yourself.

    11. Good shtuff man. Liquor has always been my go-to for escaping boredom and depression. But I'm slowly working on putting the bottle down.

    12. Random depression is the worst… You don't always know where it came from but it just hits and it's well, depressing. I completely understand your struggle with this. You're not alone. No one is ever truly alone. You got this. ❤️

    13. Definitely in a spot in my life where I'm struggling and I think it's hard for me to really admit it. I think for those of us who have been through depression, it can be extra hard to admit when we're not at 100% because we get scared that we'll go back to such a dark place. To me at least, I subconsciously think that if I ignore the bad feelings, they'll just go away. However, as you've so eloquently put, it's okay not to be okay and crucial to recognize the opportunity for growth and self-knowledge that can come from a rough time. As always, your words are exactly what I needed to hear 🙂

    14. I've had depression since about age 13 and I'm 41 now. It's a vicious biological condition. Some of us manage to control it and lead a decent life and others of us can't take it and turn to drugs or suicide. I think almost all of us learn how to pretend we're okay as a means of surviving (i.e., getting and maintaining a job, for example, or keeping relationships from falling apart despite our terrible mood swings). Those of us too ill to pretend end up on government assistance or on the street.

    15. Music, Memories, Meditation and Mindfulness has been helpful. I am taking things a few minutes at a time. God is doing for me what I can't do for myself

    16. Thank-you for this Noah. I think this is what I needed to hear today. My mood has been pretty up and down this past week, mostly down, and I've been trying to find a reason thinking there needs to be one….
      Friday it was just a sudden mood shift mid day. Kind of frustrating.
      Trying to keep that routine though. It's honestly tough most days. Thank god for kick boxing days at the gym!! ha ha

      Hope the rest of your week treats you well Noah. ❤

    17. Such a great way of looking at depression. This really changed my perspective on my current situation. Ive been struggling with depression for the last 2 years and it always feels like this is making me weaker as a person. But the idea of ´leveling-up` every time I go through this shit is a nice way to frame this. Your videos have helped me a lot recently. Thank You Noah!

    18. It was my last year at high school, and in our country your grades in this year defiine what you will study in college, until exams because of depression and anxiety i had the past 3 years I wasn't sure i can make it and I wanted to take a year off and try again next year, but i knew that this was escaping and my behaviour won't change next year, so I said fuck it and took exams, I worked my ass off to study every single minute when I can, It was 4 hours max which was nothing but the fact that this is my best made me satisfied, in the end I made it and now i'm sttudying a field that i like.

    19. I'm finally coming out of an eight month long clinical depression. It's like being alive again. Please don't give up. Only one day can make a huge difference. <3

    20. Hey, I’ve dropped out of college more times than you and am older – so believe me I get it. It’s also something that weighs heavily on my mind. I’m stuck in the dark despair of depression right now (suicidal ideation), and seeing how you have progressed and grown from what you have been thru also has given me hope, so good luck to you and thank you.

    21. Thumbs up noah.looks like your moving on to a better place.hope you find what you are looking for in life.take care.

    22. Just found out my esp was right. I just found out that one of my local friends, that I knew for 18 years has passed away from COPD. He is the second one. I have had this incurable conditions for over 10 years. is one of 4 incurable conditions that I have. Am hanging in there. Is one of 7 deaths that I am dealing with on top of everything else…

    23. I’m so glad you uploaded this. I really needed to hear this. I’ve just recently started struggling with depression and feel I have a loss of identity with it. I’ll question who I am and what I believe in. I never knew depression can make me feel so hopeless. 27 years of my life and I’m going through it for the first time. I’ve always been someone who cruises through life and with depression I ruminate in darkness and quickly and want a quick fix to stop it. I need to learn to be patient and not run on the first sign of discomfort

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