I hope this video inspires someone, like me, who fights depression and needs guidance.
As I can remember, I've always liked the food, who does not believe it, does not it? But that does not mean that food has always loved me. When I was a girl, I was very demanding with food, but I ate and enjoyed my things, and as I later came to understand, I developed some bad eating habits that still affect me to this day. On the one hand, I used to eat too fast, so fast that I drowned with most of the meals I ate. It was scary, I never knew when I was going to arrive, and every time I choked, I had a mini freakout, I realized that everything was in my head and left a cloud of anxiety in my head.
Food became a safe place for me, a place to calm me down when I was depressed, cover my face when I wanted to leave the world outside, instead of having that honest and hard conversation with a friend or loved one, I would. He eats and waits for that bad feeling to disappear so he can be happy again. I thought this was fine because I did not know I was doing it. I thought it was normal and safe to eat a lot of food when things got tough. But as time passed I began to realize how much damage it was causing me.
When I got to the root of the problem, I realized the fact that everything traumatic that I experienced as a child was repressed and replaced by eating. Every time things got difficult, frightening or out of control, I ate to calm myself down, instead of sitting with that feeling and seeing where it really came from. The food is very emotional, it makes us feel a lot, a good meal can generate pleasant memories of picking fresh strawberries with our parents as a child, or it can provoke dark memories, things that we would prefer to keep out.
But the beauty of all this is that we can find ways to reconnect with those emotions, overcome our needs and want to fill our faces and hide our feelings, because this is an unhealthy place, a place where we feed our dark desires and wreak havoc. havoc on our bodies. If, instead, we turn to those feelings and begin to go through a process that allows us to free ourselves from these bad habits, we can begin to heal ourselves from the inside out.
I'm sure you've heard the term "food is medicine," maybe it made sense to you when you heard it, or maybe not. Either way, we must realize that what we are incorporating into our bodies has a great effect not only on how we feel, but on who we are. If we continue to invest garbage in our system, over time, our bodies will respond in a way that aligns with the poor quality of the food we eat. If we take the right things, we can begin to feel the benefits of good. Quality entering our bodies.
But while we can understand that eating foods that are good for you is much better than eating processed and low-quality foods, what we often overlook is the fact that not only does what we eat affect us a lot, but also HOW we eat. that. You can eat exactly the same food twice, in two totally different situations, and it has very different results. I do not care how healthy the food you're eating is, if you're filling your face while you're on the computer, working away, barely paying attention even to chewing or tasting your food, healthy food could actually cause some problems.
You see, many times when I eat, especially in the past, I realize that I am eating fast and from a place of anxiety. Before I did not know I had anxiety, but the more I tuned in to how I felt, the more I began to see that I was suffering from severe anxiety and that I was eating from an anxious place. The problem with this is that instead of dealing with my anxiety, I'm taking it with food, thinking that the process of the food will help it disappear, but it never does, it just makes it worse, and sends a signal to My body that I want more anxiety, building like this on the cycle.
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Video credits to Brothers Green Eats YouTube channel