this video was very difficult to film, edit, upload and upload. please respect me and my story. Many people go through struggles in their lives, especially between 13 and 24 years of age … most during high school / college. Depression can happen to anyone at any time and I wanted to share my story to help others in the hope that they will relate and / or realize that they are not alone. bulimia is not a joke and definitely not "the easiest way out" … it's a disease and if you think otherwise, please do your research. Thank you very much guys for watching and again, if any of you needs someone to talk to, I'm always here!

I love you very much, thank you very much for 3 + K !!



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    1. Aside from the bulimia, if this isn’t my fkn life with college I swearrrrr. “College fkn did it to me”

    2. Ok you won me over😁. I have been watching a few vids here and there but never subscribed. You slay! Subbing.

    3. Love this, and you (just came across this channel today so a bit late)but can totally relate to this video. if you ever need anything or just wanna talk I would love to! just to relate to someone! this video is so real and raw and shows mental health is real and can happen to anyone 
      idk if you'll read or see this but… hit me up to talk wheneever at (anyone else reading whose struggling and just wanna talk hit me at any of these)
      twitter: McKenzieMcCabe
      Insta: itskenzyy

    4. I literally can relate to soo much of what you talked about. It means a lot to hear someone feel the same feelings as yourself. Thank you for sharing💖

    5. I literally cried watching this..I love you!! I literally dropped out of college without even telling the school. I just called my mom crying and she came and picked me up and one of my roommates came home while I was packing all my shit. she was the only one who knew what was going on with me because I literally stopped going to class, couldn't eat anything. Everytime any of my roommates would cook I'd leave because it made me so nauseous. I can't count the number of times I thought about doing something harmful to myself just to stop it all. I still don't know what the fuck I'm doing with my life, but I do now have an amazing fiance and a beautiful niece (his sister's daughter) so it's nice to know that if I would have stayed I wouldn't have met him! 💓

    6. This was amazing, you seem so put together and confident so it's nice to hear that you have the same struggles as a bunch of us do. I also have social anxiety, and one of the things that's helped me go out alone is to pretend like your anxiety is an anxious friend; what would you say to calm them down? Then take that advice and try to use it yourself! Thank you again for this ❤️

    7. You are awesome, thank you for sharing your story. I'm so sorry about all that happened to you, but your are super funny and courageous and I am glad I found your channel 🙂

    8. I am so so sorry that you had to go through this. You are a strong, beautiful and brave women, who I know can get through this. If you want to stay in touch, check out my channel. I have a lots of content that you may like, leave a comment so we can be YouTube friends! 🍉 Keep it up girly!

    9. I recently found your channel I love it you're awesome! 💕
      Anyway just wanted to say I absolutely admire the fact you were able to post this my first year I got super depressed as well and I gained 30lbs. I'm slowly losing it now that I realized what was going on but it's nice knowing I can watch someone on YouTube that I can relate to

    10. Thank you so much for sharing. It takes serious guts to share such a powerful, life changing experience. I really appreciate that you show the side to you that isn't "perfect" and unfiltered like so many YouTubers try to avoid.
      Much love from Illinois 💕

    11. The part about the older generation I totally agree with! As supportive as my mom is, she use to be so closed minded about mental health. Even though she worked at a mental institution! I can't blame her though. She always wanted to protect my siblings and I from everything and I think that she thought maybe it "wasn't possible" for HER kids to have a mental illness because she did take good care of us. It's just some things can't be avoided and it's no one to blame (in some cases it is). I can relate to the anxiety part. I grew up so independent my mom would always say I would want to do everything alone. And now it sometimes feel like I can't do anything by myself because like you said I feel like people are always talking shit about me (and people did about my weight growing up) . I appreciate you for sharing your story Kylie. You ARE a true inspiration ♥️

    12. So glad I found this video I am the same exact way with anxiety and was in the same place at school last year. Even the situation with your mom and your dad is the same for me in every way you specified. Nice to know I'm not the only one who went through this. Thankyou!

    13. You are so strong. I went through the same thing. I went to college to play softball and I was there for a month and hated it. I hated my teammates I hated me roommates (I hate 3 and hated 2) I stopped eating. I would eat a bit of yogurt all day and not be hungry. I lost 20 lbs in a month. And I cried myself to sleep every night. I finally told my parents that I hated it and didn't want to be there. I also thought about wrecking my car on the way to practice every day. So I quit softball. Finished my semester at school and came home. I now love at home and go to my college in my town and am 10x happier.

    14. thanks for sharing I'm in the hospital not feeling well they said I'll be bed bound not sure how I'll be able to use the restroom

    15. That was probably one of the most inspiring things I have ever heard. I am a big believer in going to college because I come from a Caribbean background but what people don't think about is the possible dark times you might go through. Because of my background mental health issues is seen as weakness.That literally touch my heart to know I am not alone. That was very strong of you to put your story out there. I hope you continue to grow in your life and channel. Good Luck!

    16. For going places in public- especially the gym. Listening to music really really loudly can be a good next step to easing into being in public by yourself. Kinda like having someone there

    17. I'm pretty late but I just want to say I am glad you are still here to share your story and tell others that it gets better <3 I wish you the best with this and I want you to know that you are so brave for posting this . You are so strong in doing so . you are so strong in working to get better and you are so strong in telling this to thousands of people who could have had many different reactions to it. This is pretty sappy but I just wanted you to know .

    18. I feel the exact same way when I go in public by myself. I didn't know that kind of anxiety was even a thing. For me I get all sweaty and red and nervous as fuck when I walk into any place, because people are "judging" me. By the way you look amazing girl!!

    19. Wow dude, thank you for sharing your story. So nice to find such real dope people on YouTube. Your so strong girl! Thank you for sharing. FORREL for real.

    20. I have the same thing with anxiety and being in public by myself. it's hard to explain to other people. love your videos!!

    21. Came along this video by watching your weight loss one and omg I relate so hard… and it feels so good to not feel so alone. Anyways hope you're doing better!

    22. Ur so pretty! I love ur personality u seem cool and U curse just as much as me lol. No but really thank god ur still here and u overcame that. Inspiration to us all.

    23. i feel like you just explained my life!! my anxiety and depression have been so bad since getting diagnosed in October, it gives me hope to hear your story and to see how far you've come. love you girl! <3

    24. Wow, I just randomly came across your video I guess because of my search topics.. but girl when I tell you your story was/is my life to a T is scary. Like you were in another state living my life vice versa. The entire time I was watching I was like this is my life! Everything from boyfriends to locking yourself in your room, to saying u failed out but just didn't go back… your not alone. Trust me I'm mentally your twin in NJ

    25. I totally understand and it's so much harder when parents don't understand the pressure and physical effects you feel with social anxiety and it sucks to explain to others that don't have it. I've had it for years and it's been high and low of constantly working on in. I've been to therapy and medication to help me. Also just having people around that are supportive are the best. It was brave of you to put your story out there because there's a lot of us out there and I think we're afraid of others judgment. Trust me you're amazing. Just test your limits and go somewhere maybe put a distance in the store or a time limit, have your outs that can make you comfortable but just keep trying. I know I've relapse and have to do exposure therapy to places in public again and slowly but surely you'll be able to do it.

    26. God bless you, you seem like a very smart, level headed person. I struggle with social anxiety too. I've learned to realize that no one is better than me. You see all these people making other peoples lives miserable, while wearing their makeup and their nice clothes?
      ……they may feel so scared and maybe even feel even more scared!. They might be just trying to be overcompensate for an insecurity or group of insecurities they have. Maybe they don't like the person they are so they're just like "fuck it! Imma say all these mean things cause I'm already at rock bottom". The point is…the people who you think are the alpha chicks or dudes, the ones who you think have a lot of people looking up to them, or the ones who appear to be attractive and stuff, they're hurting too!!! Kylie, my advice would be to CULTIVATE your inner strengths and do your best you can do in those fields. You'll feel loads better about yourself and have an easier time in dealing with public anxiety!

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