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Noah Thomas, the creator of this channel, was diagnosed by a doctor with hypogonadism and prescribed the medically indicated treatment of testosterone replacement therapy.

My story

My name is Noah and on May 18, 2011, I had a rare reaction to a medication called VIVITROL and, as a result, it became a suicidal depression with depersonalization and anxiety. I lost 25 pounds in 4 weeks and was in panic or almost panic for 8 weeks in a row, mixed with the most painful and dark depression I have ever imagined. Immediately I could not work and I had to move with my parents who, along with many brothers and friends, had to see me 24 hours a day, 7 days a week, since it was a danger for me. I was finally hospitalized at the Psych Ward for a week. Overcoming each day seemed truly unbearable and I knew I would surely die. I was prescribed many different medical treatments, prescribed by SSRIs, tricyclics, mood stabilizers, antipsychotics, holistic medicines, acupuncture and even a form of shock therapy called RTMS. I just saw no improvement in my condition for a full year. It was decided that I had treatment-resistant depression and I spent almost every moment crying. Weeks after starting my last round of medications (Seroquel and Nortryptaline) as a last effort, I extracted blood to detect possible hormonal imbalances and my testosterone levels returned to 200 ng / Dl and 150 ng / Dl. The average man of 25 years has 750 ng / Dl. With this discovery, I had an explanation of why I was not improving and why I could be so sick. The symptoms of low T are very similar to those of major depression. I started with the legally prescribed testosterone replacement therapy soon after and I have been reporting to the world and documenting my experience with the treatment, as well as offering my vision and perspective on various mental health issues. I am lucky to say that little by little, in the last 6 years, I have been improving and becoming more stable, which I never thought possible. My low T manifested in the form of major depression, anxiety and depersonalization / derealization for more than a year. Treating my low testosterone has been a HUGE part of the puzzle, but I had to continue working hard to maintain my mental stability in many setbacks. Recovering some mental stability is nothing more than a miracle, since I was close to death for what I felt forever. I still do not consider myself totally healed, but now I am closer than ever and I intend to use what I have gone through to help or at least offer support to others in need. I was able to successfully leave my Seroquel and Pamelor.

I work all the time as part of my mental health recovery! Weight training and all kinds of cardio govern a lot of my free time and I also share it on my channel.

Video credits to bignoknow YouTube channel

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  1. Hi Noah I appreciate that your not perfect and all fixed and healed because that's not my experience and it's tempting to beat yourself up and despair when you get down again after people expect you to be "better" now so it's reassuring to see real reflections on the cyclic nature of depression. I would love to see a video on how to make a daily routine when u can't face getting out of bed or leaving the house kind of a first steps to leaving the bed when your depressed
    I feel like most routines for health go straight to things like going to the gym or going out with friends things that seem too much too soon and I think a lot of people are here watching you tube videos about other depressed people so they don't feel so bad about doing nothing all day but there's no first step routines that feel doable for those of us who struggle to find a reason to get out of bed even a routine you can do in bed like google wellness make a plan for health change sheets change pajamas make yourself do things like cook one meal or clean one room or join a support group online or write 10 things your grateful for would be a great first step routine for people really stuck with getting up or out of the house especially because anxiety stops so many people leaving the house too.
    Cheers Ruby

  2. if they leave let them leave !! you are just human and definitely someone to look up to when it comes to transformation and dealing with mental illness :))))))))))))

  3. I NEED A VIDEO on Nofap, no porn stuff like your last one. If you still do it and the differences you notice, makes you happier? more energetic?

  4. I LIKE THE DRINKING UPDATE VIDEOS! i dont know what the issue is with that and why people are boucing but keep it up brother. Most people like a drink no big deal. nothing to be ashamed about..

  5. Ive been watching you ever since you started TRT. We started at the same time.
    Even now it feels like im going insane.

  6. I'm so happy for you Noah, this is why it's important to never give up, things will go better ❤️
    I NEED A VIDEO ON: the fear of getting depressed again. When I feel a little bit better I'm scared to get depressed again

  7. I NEED A VIDEO ON how to stop comfort eating and self sabotaging and how to get into a routine and what things you did to get better please. Thank you. Glad you are feeling better 🙂

  8. I NEED A VIDEO ON the consequences of depression like memory loss, gain/loss of weight, low self confidence.. etc. How to deal with the new person you are and accept that you will never be as you were before being ill. Thanks a lot 🙏🏻💜 hi from Switzerland 😉

  9. Hey Noah, feeling better too since 2 weeks, after 6 years of struggling. What has helped me is seeing friends, and realizing they actually care about me. I used to stay home and felt very lonely, but I would prefer to hide in my home than go out and talk to people. I also stopped the pill and got a new therapist.

  10. When I have happy days or weeks I get soooo scared because I know that it's not gonna last and I wonder if the next big sad will be even worse… btw your arms are giving me a chub 😍

  11. I NEED A VIDEO ON your sleep issues. What they are and how you are handling them. I'm having the situation where first I will sleep for about 3 days straight, then I'm awake for anywhere from 1 to 2 days. And prior to that I was in a reversed sleeping pattern where I was up all night and sleeping all day. I've had 2 sleep studies and they can't figure it out. Plus, they are reluctant to give me medication to straighten things out because of my psych diagnosis and the meds I'm currently on. I eat a pretty healthy diet, lots of fruits and veggies and mostly chicken. Although I do throw some red meat in at least once a week. And on the days that I can't sleep I try to get in some exercise to make me feel tired, but it's not working. I would really appreciate any insight or suggestions that you may have. Love your channel btw. I really relate to the kind of stream of consciousness that you seem to use because that's the way I tend to think. You have a point, but you don't tend to stick to a "script". And for all of the people who unsubscribe to your channel when you're having issues with your sobriety, you're very up front about the issues you have and what you will be talking about, so if they know you discuss something that may trigger them then they shouldn't subscribe in the first place. They can always look up your channel independently and pick and choose what they want to see. And they can register a like so you know that they're out there. I know with YouTube the number of subscribers you have is a priority, but not at the cost of your mental health or sobriety when they jump ship when you really need their support. Glad to hear that you're feeling better 😄🧡

  12. I NEED A VIDEO ON OCD. Glad you are feeling better, I am too. Hope it continues. Thankyou for your videos they are very helpful. X 😀👍

  13. I'm just coming out of a depressive episode myself but being mindful I could slip into it again and that's ok and I will work through it.

  14. You are struggling with chronic dysthymia, which me too struggling with. @treatment resistant depression.

  15. So glad to hear you’re seeing the light at the end of the tunnel. You and Douglas are an absolute life saver. Keep fighting the good fight. You have our support. Thanks for the inspirational content. Shit always gets better, not matter what❤️💪🏻

  16. I can completely relate to not trusting good feelings, like I'm letting myself off the hook if I don't feel bad about something. Happy to hear you're doing better.

  17. My man you are a beautiful creature! I know many things you talk about. Yes you never know how long it lasts! I remember that video when you first gave yourself an IM shot! lolz

    I NEED A VIDEO ON What is good in life?……. everything positive.

  18. That’s so amazing to hear that you’re feeling better! Blessings my friend. Thank you for being such an advocate for mental health all these years 🙂


  20. Happy to hear it man! Kind of jealous that your episode only seems to have taken a couple of months… i do understand why the therapist says it. I’m coming out of a phase of about A YEAR. It always scares me when people say “it takes a long time man!” and they mean weeks. Not months and months…. am I even doing depression wrong?

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