Her Last Words – Courtney Parker

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Some time ago I wrote my own lyrics for the song "Perfect Couple" by Fozzy and Van C, I spent a lot of time perfecting them and I did not want them to be wasted, so I recorded this, originally I said it but then realized that singing sounded a little better . I know I'm not a good singer and the issue of uploading this was not to show my voice or anything like that, I could make fun of him for doing this, I just did not want to waste something that he spent so much time writing So, I hope that at least A few people enjoy it, since it has cost me a lot of courage to upload it.

Music: Atmosphere – The Last To Say (Instrumental)


Only an average girl
She always wore a smile
She was happy and happy for a moment
Now that it's older, things get colder
Life is not what she thought, she wants someone to tell her
She told you she was depressed, you let her go
So from then on she kept him inside
She told herself that she was fine
But she was telling white lies
Can not you tell? Look at his dull eyes
He tried to stop crying almost every night
But she knew there was no possibility of feeling good
Summer came, all he wore were long sleeves
Because those cuts on your wrists were bleeding through what you see
I knew I was depressed, I did not want to admit it
He did not think she looked good, everyone seemed to lose him
She continued as a soldier with a battle wound
Bleeding for every cut your body consumed
She did not have friends at school, she was just sitting
And if someone realized, he would hold the cat
But those cuts on his wrist, were not a mistake
But nobody cared enough to save her from this self-hatred
Things were going down, they never really went up
And here she is now trapped in this stupid routine
She knew exactly what she had to do next
Just stand in that chair and tie it around your neck
She wrote a letter with her hands shaking wildly
"Look at me now, are you proud of your precious son?"
But she knew that her parents were not the only culprits
It was the world that had to bend with an embarrassed head
He stood up in the chair and looked towards the moon
Just do not think, everything will end soon
The chair fell while breathing for the last time
It's over, it's gone, now it's waving death
His mother enters, falls to the floor
And now nothing can recover what you just saw
The girl she raised is hanging there
His body is pale and his face is violently naked
She sees the note and develops it carefully
All he does is stare, "How can this be fair?"
She begins to read while tears roll down her face
"I'm sorry mom, but this world is not my place
I have tried for so long to solve this and fit
I have realized that this world is full of sin
There's nothing for me here, I'm just a waste of space
I have no reason to stay here with this horrible race
It's a misfortune, it was out of place
Born at the wrong time, and in the wrong place
It's fine, though, because you'll see me soon
You will know when your time has come, just look at the moon
As it shines bright, throughout the night
And remember that everyone faces their own fight
But I can not stand the pain, I'm not a fighter
You will spend the night, hug the pillow with more force
So let the world know, I died in the vein
Because the world around me, is the only culprit
And I know that in a year, you'll forget that I left
Because I'm not really something to think about
That's what they use to tell me, all those kids at school
So I go by the law rules of the majority
My presence on this earth is no longer necessary
And in any case, I hope this makes you stronger
You are the best friend I had
What a shame I had to make you so sad
But remember you meant everything to me
And for my heart, you're the only one who had the key
Now it's time to leave, I'm running out of space to write
And yes, I lost my fight, but please, hold on tight
I'm taking care of you, from the clouds above
And sending the purest and whitest pigeon
To watch over you and be my useful eye
So this is the world, bye. "

Video credits to Courtney Parker YouTube channel

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    1. its so deep it made me cry cus i kinda relate to this…but i like this is so touching

    2. This song gets to me in a certain way. My best friend of 5 years stopped talking to me because she was grounded. I haven't heard from her in 2 months. I was looking on my Facebook memories the other day and saw a picture of her. I don't even know if she's still alive. She was battling depression and self harmed. She moved away after 2 years of me knowing her. 6 hours away and neither of us had our license. I miss her so fucking much. I'm feel like I'm missing the other half of me. I will love her until the day I die.

    3. 😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔

    4. I have a serious question….am I the only one who will cut then look at it and say its not deep enough…then go deeper and still say it's not deep enough

    5. Right now my mom is the only thing keeping me alive, I just can’t put her through it because I know she would blame herself and I can’t do that to her because she means a lot to me and has always been there for me.

    6. It's amazing..thank you very very much …………..

    7. I actually started crying because I feel like I wrote this song. I want to sing this but I can barely get threw it, isn't that funny

    8. The beginning is so relatable to me, and I'm scared now…. I hope it never comes to actually killing myself, I have dealt with anorexia, anxiety, extreme stress, and slight depression. I feel I'm only here to help everyone else, everyday I just listen to everyone else's problems, and cry about my own problems at night. Everyone sees me as that one girl with no problems, that girl who laughs at every problem, and that one girl who would never let something that stupid get to her….. But I never told anyone how wrong they were. "kept going on like a soldier with a battle wound"……

    9. This is my favorite song besides change by xxxtentacion but this song gets me I tried killing my self to this song so many times I'm honestly such a ugly person i really wish I was just dead everything would be so much better

    10. What I see in songs (like this one and Better off Dead by sleeping with sirens) is about a female with depression. Guys have depression too. I like the songs but just a little note

    11. “Tried to stop herself from crying almost every night” why can I relate to this line so much. Well why can I relate to this whole song 😭☠️

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