For Every Couple Going Through a CLINICAL DEPRESSION Together | WORDS of HOPE

The tension of depression, anxiety, depersonalization and mood disorders in general put in a relationship is tremendous. In this video, I respond to a viewer who feels that he and his wife are no longer in love after their long battle with major depression and wants to know if there is hope that they can still fall in love again. Having gone through a very similar thought process, I felt it was appropriate to share my experience, strength and hope.


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My story

My name is Noah and, on May 18, 2011, I had a rare reaction to a vaccine called VIVITROL and, as a result, I formed a larger, agitated and depressive spiral with depersonalization. I lost 25 pounds in 4 weeks and was in panic or almost panic for 8 weeks in a row, mixed with the most painful and dark depression I have ever imagined. Immediately I could not work and I had to move with my parents, who along with many brothers and friends had to see me 24 hours a day, 7 days a week, because it was so suicidal. I was finally hospitalized. Overcoming each day seemed truly unbearable and I knew I would surely die. I have been given many tricyclics, ISRIs, mood stabilizers, antipsychotics, holistic medicines, acupuncture and even a form of shock therapy called RTMS. I just saw no improvement in my condition for a full year. It was decided that I had treatment-resistant depression and I spent almost every moment crying. Weeks after starting my last round of medications (Seroquel and Nortryptaline) as the last effort in the trench, I drew blood to detect possible hormonal imbalances and my testosterone levels returned to 200 ng / Dl and 150 ng / Dl. The average man of 25 years has 750 ng / Dl. With this discovery, for the first time I had some sort of possible explanation of why I was not improving and why I could be so sick. The symptoms of this low T are very similar to those of major depression. I started with testosterone replacement therapy soon after and I have been communicating with the world and documenting my experience with the treatment, as well as offering my vision and perspective on various mental health issues. I am lucky to say that little by little, in the last year and in the last 10 months, I have been improving and becoming more stable, something I never thought possible. My low T manifested in the form of major depression, anxiety and depersonalization / derealization for more than a year. Recovering some mental stability is nothing more than a miracle, since I was close to death for what I felt forever. I still do not consider myself totally healed, but now I am closer than ever and I intend to use what I have gone through to help or at least offer support to others in need. I was able to successfully leave my Seroquel and Pamelor.

I work all the time as part of my mental health recovery! Weight training and all types of cardio govern much of my free time!

Video credits to bignoknow YouTube channel

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    For Every Couple Going Through a CLINICAL DEPRESSION Together | WORDS of HOPE

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    1. Sir, I have been drowning in a sea of knowledge to gain understanding of my girlfriends depression. You were not all over the place in giving us your knowledge. You are a beautiful person for caring enough to give us all hope.

    2. Indeed IT takes a lot of time. But IT is no ones fault. You Will drift appart. But later you Will fond her again. But you van,t blame her if she van,t cope with IT. Time will tell. You can,t force your recovery. IT could happen to her too…..

    3. Myself and my husband are both clinically depressed due to the horrible in laws. So sad.

    4. It’s happening to me. I’ve been fighting over a year straight. My wife was diagnosed with BP and depression. She has lost herself and doesn’t know what she wants. It has test the limits of what I can take or how much I should take. She has cheated and falling for other guys during this year and it was so hard to deal with but still i tried to help save us Bc I know it’s not really her. But sometimes she says it’s her real feelings and others she does not know and she loves someone else. Well that has sorta fallen apart and she has been thinking of me and we are currently working at it. I love her so much and hope we work out. It’s the worst roller coaster I’ve been on but the highs get me through the lows.

    5. the videos that you all share and verbally explain to all of us is SO beneficial. how you are able to explain these things for us who are still depressed and still going through such issues, is just so helpful for us to hear. these issues are SO HARD to get out of, and all this advice is so important to hear. so thank you

    6. Wim Hof method for breathing helps with moods too, so i like to practice this method with my husband. he is more of my caregiver.

      This must have been tough on your wife, it is good that many times we can realise that the true love will never leave.

      Good advise/support.

    7. Thank you Noah. Does it matter that I have had about 14 episodes of depression. And right now it’s bad. I also wanted to know about your testosterone replacement. My husband has had very low testosterone and is now finally taken supplements. I had to yell at him to take action, he is not depressed. But I am so depressed I can’t see anything positive. I am so angry. Because I have ill feelings about home not trying for years and years. I just was not heard. So now my husband is my care taker because I am so depressed. I have to make a huge effort to take care of my kids but I do.
      I care about my marriage and feel powerless I feel so so sad I cry all the time. This all was brought on by our recent move well all is new and it’s hard to have community. I miss LA. I need to feel well. I want to feel in love with him and vice versa. Just the doubt kills me and I get anxiety and racing thought of we won’t have a healthy intimate sexual relationship. I really want it. I want to be the woman I can be, driven the artist in is broken. I need that since of security in my self. I want that confidence in my self. I pray to God every hour.

    8. Hey buddy 1st time I've seen one of your videos my wife is 2 weeks into her seasonal depression we had a daughter she is 3 and we've been married for 2 years in the 6 years that we have been together this is by far the most intense case, I'm not sure what to do but I'm coming to the realization that I cant do anything but be there for her. The problem is that her depression is being triggers by home she always want to either be away at work or with friends, I feel like everytime I try to help or Express my feeling about being lonely it only makes things worse so I'm now feeling lost… this ailment is a real B but im a strong person and the strength of my wife is im my eyes her best quality. We will make it through and your explanation of the dynamic of our relationship is going to be different, thanks my man you helped me understand a lot more about depression, I'm scared but the sun will come tomorrow

    9. I don’t mean to be rude but I’m a guy that’s been “clinically” depressed for years. Since I was a kid. I get up and face the day anyway. Now I’m dating some chic that just totally disrespected me by not even replying to a text. Supposedly she feels like you. But guess what? SO DO I!!! The world spins with or without you. Gotta keep up.

    10. Im depressed right now because my husband doesn't love me anymore .see i got nosy n found out his cousin is inlove with him n hes reciprocating to her

    11. My friend is severely depressed and rarely talks to me anymore. I miss him so much. I feel he wants me to go away but he messages me about once a week to apologise for not being in touch during the week.

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